1 00:00:18,777 --> 00:00:20,503 ♪ Oh 2 00:00:23,437 --> 00:00:24,921 There's that old saying 3 00:00:24,955 --> 00:00:26,750 seeing is believing, 4 00:00:26,785 --> 00:00:29,132 that somehow the way our eyes talk to our brains 5 00:00:29,167 --> 00:00:31,376 is capital F fact. 6 00:00:31,410 --> 00:00:35,069 Our mouths lie, our ears can't be trusted. 7 00:00:35,104 --> 00:00:36,898 Our other senses are shit, basically, 8 00:00:37,899 --> 00:00:38,762 but the eyes... 9 00:00:59,473 --> 00:01:01,578 ♪ You leapt from crumbling bridges ♪ 10 00:01:01,613 --> 00:01:05,444 ♪ Watching cityscapes turn to dust ♪ 11 00:01:09,483 --> 00:01:13,211 ♪ Filming helicopters crashing in the ocean ♪ 12 00:01:13,245 --> 00:01:15,627 ♪ From way above 13 00:01:20,114 --> 00:01:21,771 ♪ Got the music in you, baby 14 00:01:21,805 --> 00:01:24,049 You can see me well enough, right? 15 00:01:24,084 --> 00:01:27,087 I'm nothing special, just another bag of skin 16 00:01:27,121 --> 00:01:29,468 roaming around, life playing out 17 00:01:29,503 --> 00:01:31,608 like one of those sad old country songs. 18 00:01:31,643 --> 00:01:35,371 No daddy, no money, no sweet, shiny love to save me. 19 00:01:41,170 --> 00:01:42,999 ♪ Kisses on the foreheads 20 00:01:43,033 --> 00:01:48,004 ♪ Of the lovers wrapped in your arms ♪ 21 00:01:50,627 --> 00:01:54,528 ♪ You've been hiding them in hollowed out pianos ♪ 22 00:01:54,562 --> 00:01:59,533 ♪ Left in the dark 23 00:02:00,948 --> 00:02:05,918 ♪ Got the music in you, baby, tell me why ♪ 24 00:02:07,057 --> 00:02:11,096 ♪ Got the music in you, baby, tell me why ♪ 25 00:02:12,270 --> 00:02:13,512 ♪ You've been locked in here forever ♪ 26 00:02:13,547 --> 00:02:16,826 ♪ And you just can't say goodbye ♪ 27 00:02:21,900 --> 00:02:23,177 It always feels 28 00:02:23,212 --> 00:02:24,765 like an answer, doesn't it? 29 00:02:24,799 --> 00:02:27,526 Close your eyes and anything is possible. 30 00:02:28,493 --> 00:02:31,634 The moment you wake up, reality. 31 00:02:31,668 --> 00:02:32,842 ♪ You've been locked 32 00:02:32,876 --> 00:02:33,877 ♪ In here forever 33 00:02:33,912 --> 00:02:34,947 ♪ And you just 34 00:02:34,982 --> 00:02:36,708 ♪ Can't say goodbye 35 00:02:36,742 --> 00:02:38,537 So much for fairy tales. 36 00:02:55,451 --> 00:02:57,625 Starve, see if I care. 37 00:02:57,660 --> 00:02:58,971 Good morgin', Bessie. 38 00:02:59,006 --> 00:02:59,869 Be careful, Dad. 39 00:03:01,595 --> 00:03:03,528 Living dangerous today. 40 00:03:03,562 --> 00:03:04,805 Are you okay? 41 00:03:04,839 --> 00:03:06,600 Here, just sit, okay? 42 00:03:10,811 --> 00:03:13,365 You think you can get Argus to come over here. 43 00:03:13,400 --> 00:03:14,953 He doesn't listen to me. 44 00:03:14,987 --> 00:03:16,886 He was never my bird. 45 00:03:16,920 --> 00:03:18,128 Not that one. 46 00:03:18,163 --> 00:03:20,579 Latched right on to your mother as a hatchling. 47 00:03:22,029 --> 00:03:23,513 Kindred spirits those two. 48 00:03:24,756 --> 00:03:26,309 Stubborn and stubboner. 49 00:03:27,793 --> 00:03:31,072 We still joke about who you take after, her or him. 50 00:03:31,107 --> 00:03:33,213 I'm worried that he's not eating enough. 51 00:03:34,628 --> 00:03:36,906 A thousand eyes but unable to see what's good for him. 52 00:03:38,079 --> 00:03:39,564 He'll give in when he's hungry. 53 00:03:41,566 --> 00:03:44,879 Well, since I know you's here, 54 00:03:46,191 --> 00:03:48,435 I will go wish my bride a blessed day. 55 00:04:07,454 --> 00:04:10,664 I thought I saw my mom this morning. 56 00:04:13,977 --> 00:04:17,464 I was coming in from feeding my peacock Argus 57 00:04:17,498 --> 00:04:19,189 and I coulda sworn I saw her watching me 58 00:04:19,224 --> 00:04:20,398 from the kitchen window. 59 00:04:21,951 --> 00:04:23,124 Go on. 60 00:04:25,851 --> 00:04:27,301 When did this come about? 61 00:04:27,336 --> 00:04:29,269 This all happened so fast I barely had any time 62 00:04:29,303 --> 00:04:30,787 to think at all. 63 00:04:30,822 --> 00:04:33,031 What is there to think about? 64 00:04:33,065 --> 00:04:35,171 Your father was diagnosed years ago 65 00:04:35,205 --> 00:04:37,000 and we've spent countless clinical hours 66 00:04:37,035 --> 00:04:38,174 exploring your thoughts and feelings 67 00:04:38,208 --> 00:04:39,002 about his illness. 68 00:04:39,037 --> 00:04:39,865 I know. 69 00:04:40,763 --> 00:04:43,835 But this made it real. 70 00:04:43,869 --> 00:04:45,181 It has always been real. 71 00:04:49,012 --> 00:04:50,945 I thought I saw my mom this morning. 72 00:04:54,535 --> 00:04:58,436 I was coming in from feeding my peacock Argus 73 00:04:58,470 --> 00:05:00,092 and I coulda sworn I saw her watching me 74 00:05:00,127 --> 00:05:01,231 from my bedroom window. 75 00:05:06,444 --> 00:05:08,894 I don't want it to start all over again, Farmer. 76 00:05:08,929 --> 00:05:10,689 The fantasy that she's still here, 77 00:05:10,724 --> 00:05:12,173 I thought I was done with that. 78 00:05:13,796 --> 00:05:14,693 You are very good at the work 79 00:05:14,728 --> 00:05:16,730 that we do here, Elizabeth. 80 00:05:16,764 --> 00:05:17,834 I better be. 81 00:05:17,869 --> 00:05:19,319 We've been at it long enough. 82 00:05:25,497 --> 00:05:26,326 Go on. 83 00:06:45,646 --> 00:06:47,993 It always interests me how we go on 84 00:06:49,098 --> 00:06:50,582 but we do. 85 00:06:50,617 --> 00:06:52,619 We fucking persist. 86 00:06:52,653 --> 00:06:56,208 We assign meaning to empty things. 87 00:06:56,243 --> 00:06:57,865 We find hobbies to distract us 88 00:06:57,900 --> 00:06:59,557 for a few minutes here and there. 89 00:07:02,663 --> 00:07:03,768 Who are we kidding? 90 00:07:11,292 --> 00:07:12,432 Fuck. 91 00:08:50,875 --> 00:08:51,703 Yeah? 92 00:08:53,981 --> 00:08:56,536 That noise, you can imagine how disruptive it is 93 00:08:56,570 --> 00:08:57,398 to my work. 94 00:08:59,711 --> 00:09:01,575 I can. 95 00:09:01,610 --> 00:09:04,060 Can you imagine how disruptive it would be to my work 96 00:09:04,095 --> 00:09:05,096 if I stopped? 97 00:09:09,445 --> 00:09:10,653 I'll be done by 4:00. 98 00:09:14,761 --> 00:09:16,003 Work with me here, sir. 99 00:09:16,038 --> 00:09:18,592 I don't know the first thing about demolition. 100 00:09:18,627 --> 00:09:21,595 What, no, no, just let me do my job. 101 00:09:21,630 --> 00:09:22,492 Mint? 102 00:09:24,011 --> 00:09:25,357 Do I need one? 103 00:09:25,392 --> 00:09:26,220 Yes. 104 00:09:31,156 --> 00:09:31,985 Russell Hank. 105 00:09:55,284 --> 00:09:56,492 - Ah. - Hi. 106 00:09:56,526 --> 00:09:58,528 Sorry to call you out of the blue like this. 107 00:09:58,563 --> 00:09:59,529 Murray told me to try Mrs. Kraftt first 108 00:09:59,564 --> 00:10:01,635 but there was no answer. 109 00:10:01,670 --> 00:10:03,499 There wouldn't be. 110 00:10:03,533 --> 00:10:05,432 Sorry, I didn't know he even had an appointment today. 111 00:10:05,466 --> 00:10:06,916 I had a cancellation. 112 00:10:06,951 --> 00:10:10,333 I'm only in this area twice a year so Murray made it work. 113 00:10:10,368 --> 00:10:11,956 Spent most of my career at Johns Hopkins. 114 00:10:11,990 --> 00:10:14,855 Now I make the rounds of these small rural hospitals. 115 00:10:14,890 --> 00:10:16,339 That's really great. 116 00:10:16,374 --> 00:10:18,583 So what's your opinion of my dad? 117 00:10:19,722 --> 00:10:23,450 Well, we're just finishing up his MRI 118 00:10:23,484 --> 00:10:25,659 and there are some decisions to be made. 119 00:10:25,694 --> 00:10:27,419 What kind of decisions? 120 00:10:27,454 --> 00:10:29,456 I know, who am I, right? 121 00:10:29,490 --> 00:10:30,699 New doctor walks in, 122 00:10:30,733 --> 00:10:32,390 right away he wants to change the wallpaper. 123 00:10:32,424 --> 00:10:35,255 But I have to tell you, Elizabeth, the wallpaper is ugly. 124 00:10:35,289 --> 00:10:38,430 Your father's Parkinson's is not getting any better. 125 00:10:38,465 --> 00:10:39,984 And during this afternoon's tests 126 00:10:40,018 --> 00:10:42,814 I observed some secondary symptoms that trouble me. 127 00:10:42,849 --> 00:10:46,093 Time to start thinking about deep brain stimulation. 128 00:10:46,128 --> 00:10:47,474 - It is good? - It, oh. 129 00:10:49,821 --> 00:10:51,271 Good. 130 00:10:51,305 --> 00:10:54,308 It's a somewhat routine surgery for Parkinson's sufferers. 131 00:10:54,343 --> 00:10:57,001 We just drill a small hole in Murray's cranium, 132 00:10:57,035 --> 00:10:58,554 implant a couple of electrodes, 133 00:10:58,588 --> 00:11:00,625 check to see that his motor functions are improved 134 00:11:00,660 --> 00:11:02,213 and then close him right up. 135 00:11:03,524 --> 00:11:05,009 Worst part'll be the haircut. 136 00:11:05,043 --> 00:11:06,631 Fuck. 137 00:11:06,666 --> 00:11:09,289 Sorry, I didn't mean to say that out loud. 138 00:11:09,323 --> 00:11:10,635 Don't apologize, Elizabeth. 139 00:11:10,670 --> 00:11:12,154 It's one of my favorite words. 140 00:11:12,188 --> 00:11:13,086 Housekeeping to-- 141 00:11:13,120 --> 00:11:15,295 Everyone calls me Bess. 142 00:11:15,329 --> 00:11:16,814 All right, Bess. 143 00:11:17,884 --> 00:11:19,092 Sure you wanna go home 144 00:11:19,126 --> 00:11:20,680 and discuss this with your family. 145 00:11:20,714 --> 00:11:23,199 But what does my dad think? 146 00:11:23,234 --> 00:11:24,407 He won't do anything 147 00:11:24,442 --> 00:11:25,719 without your and Mrs. Kraftt's approval. 148 00:11:26,962 --> 00:11:29,378 There is no Mrs. Kraftt. 149 00:11:29,412 --> 00:11:30,586 Excuse me? 150 00:11:30,620 --> 00:11:33,278 I, my mother passed away 10 years ago. 151 00:11:44,427 --> 00:11:45,843 I wish I could stay and eat with you 152 00:11:45,877 --> 00:11:49,363 but my Ocular Anatomy and Physiology class starts tonight. 153 00:11:49,398 --> 00:11:51,814 Ooh, sounds boring as hell. 154 00:11:51,849 --> 00:11:52,919 I know. 155 00:11:53,920 --> 00:11:55,576 Then why are you going? 156 00:11:55,611 --> 00:11:58,614 It'll be good to have a marketable skill. 157 00:11:58,648 --> 00:12:00,961 Careful, turn the heat down a bit. 158 00:12:05,794 --> 00:12:07,761 I told you I'm not eating. 159 00:12:07,796 --> 00:12:09,280 But your mother is. 160 00:12:09,314 --> 00:12:12,076 This is exactly what Dr. Klienart was talking about. 161 00:12:12,110 --> 00:12:13,249 You're sick. 162 00:12:13,284 --> 00:12:14,734 I'm well aware of that. 163 00:12:14,768 --> 00:12:16,528 In the head, Dad, dementia. 164 00:12:17,771 --> 00:12:19,462 One of the many joys of Parkinson's. 165 00:12:19,497 --> 00:12:21,188 And the fact that you refuse to accept 166 00:12:21,223 --> 00:12:23,121 that Mom is gone is proof. 167 00:12:23,156 --> 00:12:26,021 She's dead, Dad, gone, dead. 168 00:12:26,055 --> 00:12:30,266 I've told you many times she's right here, alive and well. 169 00:12:30,301 --> 00:12:31,716 Yoo hoo, over here. 170 00:12:38,067 --> 00:12:40,898 Look, I'm shaking more than you. 171 00:12:42,451 --> 00:12:43,901 But it's the right thing. 172 00:12:43,935 --> 00:12:47,905 Afterwards everything will be different and better. 173 00:12:47,939 --> 00:12:49,630 Dr. Klienart is sure of it. 174 00:12:49,665 --> 00:12:52,426 Yeah, well, when a guy wants to go poking around 175 00:12:52,461 --> 00:12:55,395 inside your head, you better do one hell of a job 176 00:12:55,429 --> 00:12:57,017 selling the advantages. 177 00:12:57,052 --> 00:12:58,467 Why don't you put it off awhile, Murray? 178 00:12:58,501 --> 00:12:59,295 You have time. 179 00:13:00,400 --> 00:13:02,402 Let's stop being so gloomy. 180 00:13:02,436 --> 00:13:04,059 I'll be fine, right? 181 00:13:04,093 --> 00:13:05,163 Better than ever. 182 00:13:05,198 --> 00:13:06,993 And if not, everything has an end. 183 00:13:08,063 --> 00:13:09,374 Only the sausage has two. 184 00:13:11,583 --> 00:13:13,033 Great. 185 00:13:13,068 --> 00:13:14,241 Oh boy. 186 00:13:16,623 --> 00:13:18,176 I'll be upstairs. 187 00:13:32,190 --> 00:13:33,536 Where are your coveralls? 188 00:13:35,607 --> 00:13:36,816 Please put them back on. 189 00:13:38,334 --> 00:13:39,163 Please? 190 00:13:40,405 --> 00:13:41,751 What's your problem, man? 191 00:13:42,856 --> 00:13:43,857 I'm on the spectrum 192 00:13:45,203 --> 00:13:46,998 and I was raised Pennsylvania Dutch. 193 00:13:49,656 --> 00:13:51,244 I, too, am a connoisseur of beef burgers. 194 00:13:51,278 --> 00:13:53,591 I highly value their uniform size and quality. 195 00:13:57,181 --> 00:13:58,768 Never thought of it like that. 196 00:14:00,287 --> 00:14:02,462 I just saw it as another way to kill myself. 197 00:14:04,913 --> 00:14:05,983 Are you suicidal? 198 00:14:07,950 --> 00:14:09,193 I damn sure hope so. 199 00:14:12,782 --> 00:14:15,199 Whatever you don't finish I would like to have. 200 00:14:26,624 --> 00:14:27,625 My mother always gave me 201 00:14:27,659 --> 00:14:28,971 the same advice. 202 00:14:29,006 --> 00:14:31,940 She'd say, "Russell, stop being so difficult. 203 00:14:33,113 --> 00:14:35,288 "You're only gonna end up lonely." 204 00:14:35,322 --> 00:14:36,772 And she was also 205 00:14:36,806 --> 00:14:38,429 the most difficult, lonely person who ever lived. 206 00:14:40,983 --> 00:14:43,054 Biology is destiny. 207 00:15:01,314 --> 00:15:03,488 I was being accommodating. 208 00:15:03,523 --> 00:15:04,558 You were flirting. 209 00:15:06,526 --> 00:15:08,286 I'm sorry I'm late. 210 00:15:08,321 --> 00:15:09,909 Oh that's okay. 211 00:15:09,943 --> 00:15:12,394 Noonan, exam room C. 212 00:15:12,428 --> 00:15:15,362 I refuse to put up with that sauce box. 213 00:15:15,397 --> 00:15:16,881 Isn't it wonderful, Bess? 214 00:15:17,917 --> 00:15:20,126 Some day all this will be yours. 215 00:15:22,507 --> 00:15:23,577 It is wonderful. 216 00:15:29,687 --> 00:15:31,068 Dr. Smithson. 217 00:15:31,102 --> 00:15:34,174 Doctoral Candidate Smithson you mean. 218 00:15:36,763 --> 00:15:38,178 Jesus, Farmer, what's with all the noise? 219 00:15:38,213 --> 00:15:40,732 What can I do for you, Dr. Shine? 220 00:15:40,767 --> 00:15:41,941 I'm calling to invite you 221 00:15:41,975 --> 00:15:43,494 to the Templeton reception tomorrow. 222 00:15:43,528 --> 00:15:44,944 I cannot participate. 223 00:15:44,978 --> 00:15:47,187 Come on, Farmer, I'm trying to help you. 224 00:15:53,021 --> 00:15:55,368 You could mix and mingle, network. 225 00:16:00,821 --> 00:16:03,134 Just make an hour of nice with the schmucks 226 00:16:03,169 --> 00:16:04,204 who pay your rent. 227 00:16:05,412 --> 00:16:06,448 I believe in you. 228 00:16:07,621 --> 00:16:09,382 I wouldn't be your advisor if I didn't. 229 00:16:12,592 --> 00:16:13,558 I'll consider it. 230 00:16:59,915 --> 00:17:02,331 Put yolk in your hair, dear. 231 00:18:25,897 --> 00:18:27,002 Bess, pull over. 232 00:18:28,176 --> 00:18:30,281 There's something I need to talk to you about. 233 00:18:31,731 --> 00:18:35,010 This may sound odd, but I'd like to do this alone. 234 00:18:35,044 --> 00:18:36,287 What, what do you mean? 235 00:18:38,186 --> 00:18:40,464 This disease doesn't make me feel like much of a man 236 00:18:40,498 --> 00:18:41,499 most of the time. 237 00:18:42,914 --> 00:18:45,710 But it feels very manly to walk into brain surgery alone, 238 00:18:45,745 --> 00:18:47,367 very John Wayne. 239 00:18:47,402 --> 00:18:48,196 Stop it. 240 00:18:48,230 --> 00:18:49,266 I wanna go with you. 241 00:18:49,300 --> 00:18:50,232 No, you don't. 242 00:18:52,959 --> 00:18:55,479 You and your mother as so much alike. 243 00:18:55,513 --> 00:18:57,032 Were, Dad, were. 244 00:18:59,862 --> 00:19:01,485 I'm going to be awake for this whole thing 245 00:19:01,519 --> 00:19:04,660 and it will be over before we know it. 246 00:19:04,695 --> 00:19:05,834 So let's treat today 247 00:19:05,868 --> 00:19:07,249 like it's any other 248 00:19:07,284 --> 00:19:10,597 and when I come out of surgery and I'm good as new, 249 00:19:11,736 --> 00:19:13,842 we'll come back here and celebrate. 250 00:19:13,876 --> 00:19:15,015 Can you do that for me? 251 00:19:17,432 --> 00:19:18,743 Can you do that for me? 252 00:19:21,539 --> 00:19:22,782 Happy Birthday, Bessie. 253 00:19:24,680 --> 00:19:25,854 I completely forgot. 254 00:19:30,583 --> 00:19:35,588 Thank you, Papa. 255 00:19:55,504 --> 00:19:56,747 So you've been attempting to kill yourself 256 00:19:56,781 --> 00:20:00,095 for the past four years and have yet to succeed. 257 00:20:00,129 --> 00:20:02,960 Well, the goal isn't death exactly. 258 00:20:03,892 --> 00:20:05,307 Evidence suggests. 259 00:20:06,895 --> 00:20:08,241 I just can't seem to figure out 260 00:20:08,276 --> 00:20:10,347 a better way to disappear. 261 00:20:10,381 --> 00:20:12,418 What do you mean "disappear"? 262 00:20:12,452 --> 00:20:13,281 I don't know. 263 00:20:15,421 --> 00:20:16,939 I just always had this feeling 264 00:20:18,078 --> 00:20:20,115 like I was supposed to be invisible 265 00:20:20,149 --> 00:20:23,152 but somehow I ended up like this. 266 00:20:24,430 --> 00:20:25,258 Interesting. 267 00:20:26,432 --> 00:20:28,503 $40 a session and you will be 268 00:20:28,537 --> 00:20:31,333 invisible by summer. 269 00:20:32,231 --> 00:20:33,611 Are you a doctor? 270 00:20:33,646 --> 00:20:34,888 Not yet. 271 00:20:34,923 --> 00:20:37,270 Technically, you'd be a research subject. 272 00:20:37,305 --> 00:20:40,653 No way am I sharing my feelings with you. 273 00:20:42,206 --> 00:20:43,414 Nor I with you. 274 00:20:43,449 --> 00:20:46,624 Empathy is a daily struggle for me. 275 00:20:46,659 --> 00:20:48,350 Order and logic are my methodology. 276 00:20:49,731 --> 00:20:51,629 Are evenings good for you? 277 00:20:52,492 --> 00:20:53,286 Are you deaf? 278 00:20:53,321 --> 00:20:54,494 Said I'm not interested. 279 00:21:04,228 --> 00:21:05,264 I'm not deaf. 280 00:21:16,482 --> 00:21:18,932 I wanted to give you this before I left. 281 00:21:18,967 --> 00:21:20,589 It's for the rest of the semester. 282 00:21:20,624 --> 00:21:22,488 Thank you so much. 283 00:21:22,522 --> 00:21:24,144 Are you liking your class? 284 00:21:25,111 --> 00:21:27,044 Are you learning anything? 285 00:21:27,078 --> 00:21:29,253 Well, it turns out I don't know the first thing 286 00:21:29,288 --> 00:21:30,703 about ocular anatomy. 287 00:21:30,737 --> 00:21:33,637 Well, if you ever have any questions, 288 00:21:34,534 --> 00:21:35,846 you know where to find me. 289 00:22:31,488 --> 00:22:33,904 Mrs. Kraftt? 290 00:22:35,250 --> 00:22:37,873 Is he still unconscious? 291 00:22:37,908 --> 00:22:39,461 Yes, but I want you to know 292 00:22:39,496 --> 00:22:42,361 I couldn't be more optimistic about Murray's recovery. 293 00:22:42,395 --> 00:22:46,019 His vital signs are good, all of the lab results 294 00:22:46,054 --> 00:22:49,264 and brain scans indicate he's in excellent health. 295 00:22:51,162 --> 00:22:54,442 Can you really go blind by staring at the sun? 296 00:22:54,476 --> 00:22:58,584 Well, the retina is a delicate thing. 297 00:22:58,618 --> 00:23:02,104 I have to admit, meeting you has me confused. 298 00:23:02,139 --> 00:23:03,209 Your daughter told me-- 299 00:23:03,243 --> 00:23:04,693 That I'm dead? 300 00:23:04,728 --> 00:23:05,556 I know. 301 00:23:07,316 --> 00:23:09,042 It's been a million theories over the years 302 00:23:09,077 --> 00:23:10,596 but nothing sticks. 303 00:23:10,630 --> 00:23:12,598 And everyone in town has pussyfooted around her 304 00:23:12,632 --> 00:23:14,427 for half a lifetime. 305 00:23:14,462 --> 00:23:15,877 She's been here. 306 00:23:15,911 --> 00:23:19,190 We discussed Mr. Kraftt's operation at length. 307 00:23:20,399 --> 00:23:21,917 She can see her father just fine. 308 00:23:22,884 --> 00:23:23,954 I'm the only invisible person 309 00:23:23,988 --> 00:23:26,128 in her life. 310 00:23:26,163 --> 00:23:29,062 We live in the same house, we eat at the same dinner table, 311 00:23:29,097 --> 00:23:30,512 we park in the same garage 312 00:23:32,100 --> 00:23:35,414 but she can't see me or hear me or even sense me. 313 00:23:36,484 --> 00:23:37,657 I simply don't exist. 314 00:23:39,245 --> 00:23:41,143 Well, I have never come across anything like it 315 00:23:41,178 --> 00:23:42,973 in all my studies of the brain. 316 00:23:43,836 --> 00:23:45,251 Why, she should see someone. 317 00:23:47,080 --> 00:23:50,429 I'm, I mean, a specialist. 318 00:23:51,568 --> 00:23:53,673 Has she had her vision charted? 319 00:23:53,708 --> 00:23:55,779 - A brain scan? - We've tried everything, 320 00:23:56,780 --> 00:23:59,161 gone everywhere, done everything. 321 00:24:00,404 --> 00:24:01,923 She has been seeing someone in town 322 00:24:01,957 --> 00:24:04,201 who's taken her on as like a special project. 323 00:24:06,548 --> 00:24:08,067 She seems to have stabilized. 324 00:24:09,862 --> 00:24:12,451 At this point a cure just seems out of the question. 325 00:24:31,366 --> 00:24:32,367 Will you shift a little? 326 00:24:32,401 --> 00:24:33,748 You're pressing on my ribs. 327 00:24:33,782 --> 00:24:35,094 That's birth trauma. 328 00:24:35,128 --> 00:24:36,785 Breathe through it. 329 00:24:36,820 --> 00:24:38,304 I'm really sweating. 330 00:24:38,338 --> 00:24:39,892 That's amniotic fluid. 331 00:24:39,926 --> 00:24:40,927 It's to be expected. 332 00:24:42,066 --> 00:24:43,792 Now you're doing very good 333 00:24:43,827 --> 00:24:47,209 and you've spent the last nine months 334 00:24:47,244 --> 00:24:49,280 preparing for life. 335 00:24:49,315 --> 00:24:53,284 So when you're ready, start to push your way 336 00:24:53,319 --> 00:24:54,320 into the world. 337 00:24:57,185 --> 00:24:58,600 Focus. 338 00:24:58,635 --> 00:25:00,464 - Head stayed up and breathe. - I'm dying under here. 339 00:25:01,292 --> 00:25:02,604 Oh, what's wrong? 340 00:25:02,639 --> 00:25:04,468 I cannot have a wrongful death lawsuit. 341 00:25:04,503 --> 00:25:06,125 It would greatly jeopardize my research. 342 00:25:06,159 --> 00:25:07,540 No, no, I'm not really dying. 343 00:25:07,575 --> 00:25:09,680 It's just an expression. 344 00:25:09,715 --> 00:25:11,406 Here, come back here. 345 00:25:11,440 --> 00:25:13,546 I'll be born again better this time. 346 00:25:13,581 --> 00:25:15,203 Not tonight, Elizabeth. 347 00:25:15,237 --> 00:25:17,170 Rebirthing takes too much out of me. 348 00:25:17,205 --> 00:25:20,622 Please, Farmer, I'll do anything to get better. 349 00:25:41,609 --> 00:25:42,575 This thought keeps going 350 00:25:42,610 --> 00:25:43,680 around my head lately 351 00:25:43,714 --> 00:25:45,751 that maybe I'm already dead 352 00:25:45,785 --> 00:25:48,339 and that this is some delusion of existence. 353 00:25:49,789 --> 00:25:50,652 Heavy, right? 354 00:25:52,585 --> 00:25:55,554 Good God, I'm full of shit. 355 00:25:55,588 --> 00:26:00,489 ♪ Ah ah ah ah 356 00:26:00,524 --> 00:26:04,148 ♪ Ah ah ah ah 357 00:26:04,183 --> 00:26:06,185 ♪ Set me free 358 00:26:20,026 --> 00:26:21,752 ♪ Ah 359 00:26:24,859 --> 00:26:26,585 So I'd expect you to roll your eyes 360 00:26:26,619 --> 00:26:28,241 if I went and told you about a girl 361 00:26:28,276 --> 00:26:30,002 and her tree house in the sky. 362 00:26:32,660 --> 00:26:35,076 If I told you that that girl believes her mother is dead 363 00:26:35,110 --> 00:26:36,733 simply because she can't see her. 364 00:26:41,289 --> 00:26:42,497 ♪ Am I ah 365 00:26:42,531 --> 00:26:45,120 But you see that girl, don't you? 366 00:26:45,155 --> 00:26:47,157 All fair skin and red hair. 367 00:26:48,330 --> 00:26:50,401 A smile for everyone to cover what's numb. 368 00:26:51,886 --> 00:26:55,372 That right there, that's truth. 369 00:26:56,338 --> 00:26:58,168 ♪ Set me free 370 00:26:58,202 --> 00:27:00,722 ♪ Set me free 371 00:27:00,757 --> 00:27:03,035 ♪ Ah 372 00:27:03,069 --> 00:27:06,038 And I'm supposed to make sense of this instant? 373 00:27:07,142 --> 00:27:09,800 Oh no, no, knowing about someone, you know. 374 00:27:12,113 --> 00:27:13,839 ♪ Ah 375 00:27:15,288 --> 00:27:17,290 But I'm telling you this feeling right now 376 00:27:17,325 --> 00:27:19,292 is as real as it fucking gets. 377 00:27:19,327 --> 00:27:21,881 ♪ Set me free 378 00:27:21,916 --> 00:27:24,435 ♪ Set me free 379 00:27:34,514 --> 00:27:35,861 Look at that patty. 380 00:27:36,827 --> 00:27:39,209 Perfectly round, perfectly flat. 381 00:27:46,665 --> 00:27:49,081 Burgers were my mom's signature dish. 382 00:27:52,774 --> 00:27:53,637 They were awful. 383 00:27:55,812 --> 00:27:57,054 The only time she fixed them 384 00:27:57,089 --> 00:27:58,538 was when one of her boyfriends was over 385 00:27:58,573 --> 00:28:02,128 and she was too caught up to pay any attention to the grill. 386 00:28:02,163 --> 00:28:03,854 I, too, have childhood memories of beef. 387 00:28:03,889 --> 00:28:06,201 It was my job to milk the cows each morning. 388 00:28:08,307 --> 00:28:09,515 You grew up on a farm? 389 00:28:10,447 --> 00:28:11,275 I did. 390 00:28:12,725 --> 00:28:14,071 Had I stayed, my condition would've made me 391 00:28:14,106 --> 00:28:15,141 an excellent farmer. 392 00:28:17,557 --> 00:28:20,526 People think you need an affinity for plants. 393 00:28:20,560 --> 00:28:22,839 But success simply relies on accurate calculations, 394 00:28:22,873 --> 00:28:26,566 soil composition, weather, acreage, et cetera. 395 00:28:26,601 --> 00:28:27,602 Why did you leave? 396 00:28:28,776 --> 00:28:30,778 My parents died when I was six. 397 00:28:33,884 --> 00:28:35,161 That's when I moved here. 398 00:28:36,922 --> 00:28:38,061 At what part of town? 399 00:28:39,752 --> 00:28:40,926 I just told you, here. 400 00:28:46,828 --> 00:28:47,898 Bitch of a commute. 401 00:28:48,796 --> 00:28:50,142 Not at all. 402 00:28:50,176 --> 00:28:51,108 I simply walk up. 403 00:28:52,592 --> 00:28:53,421 I was joking. 404 00:28:55,699 --> 00:28:57,218 And what are you doing here? 405 00:28:57,252 --> 00:28:58,288 It's a long story. 406 00:28:58,322 --> 00:28:59,427 I've been all over. 407 00:29:00,842 --> 00:29:02,533 But there's a lotta work for a demolition guy 408 00:29:02,568 --> 00:29:04,018 in these parts. 409 00:29:04,052 --> 00:29:05,709 And do you enjoy your work? 410 00:29:06,952 --> 00:29:07,780 Sure. 411 00:29:09,023 --> 00:29:10,576 I get to take something solid 412 00:29:10,610 --> 00:29:12,302 and make it like it never existed. 413 00:29:13,579 --> 00:29:14,683 A magician of sorts. 414 00:29:16,133 --> 00:29:17,652 It's hardly magic. 415 00:29:19,654 --> 00:29:21,276 And your family, where are they? 416 00:29:29,146 --> 00:29:30,423 Who's Elizabeth K? 417 00:29:31,804 --> 00:29:33,288 Your therapy partner. 418 00:29:34,876 --> 00:29:38,052 Okay, I told you I'm not doing therapy. 419 00:29:39,260 --> 00:29:40,986 I have yet to tell you to do anything. 420 00:29:42,435 --> 00:29:43,851 Group therapy is one of the last courses of treatment 421 00:29:43,885 --> 00:29:45,266 I have yet to try with Elizabeth 422 00:29:45,300 --> 00:29:46,543 and I believe the two of you 423 00:29:46,577 --> 00:29:49,132 - will pair off nicely. - No, no, you see, 424 00:29:49,166 --> 00:29:50,789 you don't understand. 425 00:29:50,823 --> 00:29:53,239 I wouldn't be good for anyone's mental health. 426 00:29:54,413 --> 00:29:56,242 Please never again make an assumption 427 00:29:56,277 --> 00:29:57,381 about my understanding. 428 00:29:57,416 --> 00:29:58,313 I'm offering my help. 429 00:29:58,348 --> 00:29:59,798 I'm not a charity case. 430 00:30:01,040 --> 00:30:01,834 Correct, you are a medical case. 431 00:30:03,802 --> 00:30:05,286 Look, I know you hate it when I show up 432 00:30:05,320 --> 00:30:07,150 without an appointment but I really need to talk to you. 433 00:30:07,184 --> 00:30:08,323 Yeah, I'm gonna go. 434 00:30:08,358 --> 00:30:09,531 No, no, wait. 435 00:30:10,429 --> 00:30:11,637 Wait please. 436 00:30:11,671 --> 00:30:13,121 Before we continue, 437 00:30:13,156 --> 00:30:15,883 I would like to introduce you to Russell. 438 00:30:15,917 --> 00:30:16,918 Who's that? 439 00:30:17,850 --> 00:30:19,024 Well, ask him yourself. 440 00:30:19,990 --> 00:30:21,889 Okay, when will he be here? 441 00:30:23,097 --> 00:30:24,167 It's not another one of your research assistants 442 00:30:24,201 --> 00:30:25,685 is it, Farmer? 443 00:30:25,720 --> 00:30:28,136 I can't sit for another one of those practice intakes. 444 00:30:28,171 --> 00:30:29,724 Hi, hello. 445 00:30:29,758 --> 00:30:32,037 Russell is your group therapy partner. 446 00:30:32,071 --> 00:30:32,934 Stop being rude. 447 00:30:32,969 --> 00:30:34,073 Say hello. 448 00:30:34,108 --> 00:30:35,523 - Wait, I told you - Really? 449 00:30:35,557 --> 00:30:37,076 - I'm not doing group therapy. - Wait, group therapy? 450 00:30:37,111 --> 00:30:38,353 Are you guys fucking with me? 451 00:30:38,388 --> 00:30:39,492 Not at all, Russell. 452 00:30:39,527 --> 00:30:41,080 Who are you talking to? 453 00:30:42,461 --> 00:30:43,911 Can she not see me? 454 00:30:49,019 --> 00:30:52,022 Can you not see him? 455 00:30:52,057 --> 00:30:53,265 Are you mocking my dad? 456 00:30:54,853 --> 00:30:56,337 The most important person to me 457 00:30:56,371 --> 00:30:58,339 is the sickest he's ever been and you're making fun 458 00:30:58,373 --> 00:31:00,341 of the fact he sees people who aren't there? 459 00:31:00,375 --> 00:31:03,792 I was speaking directly to Russell Hank, 460 00:31:03,827 --> 00:31:06,726 the tall young man that is standing right across from you. 461 00:31:09,384 --> 00:31:10,592 You know what? 462 00:31:10,627 --> 00:31:11,662 I should really be at the hospital. 463 00:31:22,156 --> 00:31:23,260 I dare say, Russell, 464 00:31:24,330 --> 00:31:26,539 this is a highly significant development. 465 00:31:27,955 --> 00:31:28,783 Holy shit. 466 00:31:30,854 --> 00:31:31,648 You're a genius. 467 00:31:34,133 --> 00:31:35,790 I'm finally invisible. 468 00:31:49,045 --> 00:31:50,011 ID please. 469 00:31:50,046 --> 00:31:54,050 ♪ Who knew you'd like to do 470 00:31:54,084 --> 00:31:55,327 Look at that. 471 00:31:55,361 --> 00:31:56,259 Happy Birthday. 472 00:31:56,293 --> 00:31:57,916 ♪ Love so strong 473 00:31:57,950 --> 00:31:59,676 Birthday, huh? 474 00:32:01,160 --> 00:32:02,990 Well, let's party. 475 00:32:04,508 --> 00:32:05,337 Tequila. 476 00:32:06,510 --> 00:32:08,754 Uh, shots aren't really my thing. 477 00:32:08,788 --> 00:32:11,550 Well, they are tonight. 478 00:32:11,584 --> 00:32:13,862 Keep to the well liquor and clocks it. 479 00:32:15,450 --> 00:32:17,211 Normally, I would see a girl like that 480 00:32:17,245 --> 00:32:18,971 and my mind would start to race 481 00:32:19,006 --> 00:32:21,594 with all the things I was never going to say to her. 482 00:32:23,044 --> 00:32:25,598 I'd force myself to look away so our eyes would never meet. 483 00:32:26,737 --> 00:32:28,912 ♪ I'll walk so many miles 484 00:32:28,947 --> 00:32:29,948 Oh. 485 00:32:31,501 --> 00:32:33,572 Okay, and another one please. 486 00:32:33,606 --> 00:32:34,400 Can someone tell me 487 00:32:34,435 --> 00:32:35,677 what I'm supposed to do 488 00:32:35,712 --> 00:32:36,989 with the fact that I want to look at her 489 00:32:37,024 --> 00:32:40,165 and look at her and maybe never stop? 490 00:32:41,028 --> 00:32:41,925 Cheers. 491 00:32:41,960 --> 00:32:43,133 Happy Birthday. 492 00:32:43,168 --> 00:32:45,170 Happy Birthday to you. 493 00:33:08,607 --> 00:33:10,747 Consider the condition of selective hearing 494 00:33:10,781 --> 00:33:12,680 most children suffer from. 495 00:33:12,714 --> 00:33:14,302 One tells a child to do his homework 496 00:33:14,337 --> 00:33:16,477 and he tunes you out completely. 497 00:33:16,511 --> 00:33:21,516 This is selective perception based entirely in the mind. 498 00:33:22,966 --> 00:33:24,864 You see only what you want to see when you want to see it. 499 00:33:28,178 --> 00:33:33,183 ♪ Do you wanna go walk anyway 500 00:33:35,220 --> 00:33:38,395 ♪ I walk so many more 501 00:33:43,987 --> 00:33:45,195 Dr. Smithson. 502 00:33:48,026 --> 00:33:48,854 Hello? 503 00:33:50,856 --> 00:33:52,582 Hello? 504 00:33:52,616 --> 00:33:53,445 Farmer? 505 00:33:54,653 --> 00:33:56,793 Hello, Elizabeth. 506 00:33:56,827 --> 00:33:58,001 I'm glad you answered. 507 00:33:59,347 --> 00:34:01,660 Now, I'm sorry 508 00:34:01,694 --> 00:34:04,939 for walking out on you today. 509 00:34:04,973 --> 00:34:06,320 It's just that everything 510 00:34:06,354 --> 00:34:09,564 that's happening with my dad and-- 511 00:34:09,599 --> 00:34:10,669 What is that noise? 512 00:34:12,671 --> 00:34:15,639 Are you urinating? 513 00:34:15,674 --> 00:34:17,124 Yes. 514 00:34:17,158 --> 00:34:22,163 ♪ And no shall baby too 515 00:34:23,095 --> 00:34:26,650 ♪ We'll never disappear 516 00:34:26,685 --> 00:34:27,513 Mmm. 517 00:34:29,446 --> 00:34:30,930 Oh, Farmer, are you there? 518 00:34:30,965 --> 00:34:33,864 Would you like to come in and talk further? 519 00:34:33,899 --> 00:34:34,727 No. 520 00:34:35,590 --> 00:34:37,247 I'm at the hospital. 521 00:34:39,042 --> 00:34:40,802 Elizabeth. 522 00:34:42,597 --> 00:34:43,426 Elizabeth. 523 00:34:51,192 --> 00:34:53,608 ♪ Till never 524 00:34:54,575 --> 00:34:55,886 I think I'm ready to go. 525 00:34:56,749 --> 00:34:59,062 Oh, come on, stay. 526 00:34:59,097 --> 00:35:03,101 You're the prettiest girl to come around here in months. 527 00:35:04,067 --> 00:35:05,275 I'll have a beer. 528 00:35:05,310 --> 00:35:07,208 Hey, man, you're blocking my view. 529 00:35:37,997 --> 00:35:39,206 Oh. 530 00:35:39,240 --> 00:35:40,414 Mrs. Kraftt, this is Marnie. 531 00:35:40,448 --> 00:35:42,416 She's here to insert your husband's catheter. 532 00:35:43,900 --> 00:35:45,626 I suggest you might wanna step outside for a second. 533 00:35:47,559 --> 00:35:48,801 She's far too pretty to leave alone 534 00:35:48,836 --> 00:35:50,009 with Murray's penis. 535 00:35:50,044 --> 00:35:51,079 He's an awful flirt. 536 00:35:58,639 --> 00:35:59,433 He'll be fine. 537 00:36:02,332 --> 00:36:04,610 Well, sometimes people just get very tired. 538 00:36:05,818 --> 00:36:07,234 They need to rest for awhile. 539 00:36:15,759 --> 00:36:17,382 Fuck that, Murray. 540 00:36:17,416 --> 00:36:18,245 Wake up. 541 00:36:58,354 --> 00:36:59,389 Hi ya, Papa. 542 00:37:05,395 --> 00:37:06,603 You look horrible. 543 00:37:06,638 --> 00:37:07,570 No offense. 544 00:37:13,610 --> 00:37:16,026 You shoulda seen me today. 545 00:37:16,061 --> 00:37:19,271 I was out on the town living life like a real person. 546 00:37:20,479 --> 00:37:21,308 Yes? 547 00:37:22,688 --> 00:37:26,520 Here's to another shit-filled year of life. 548 00:37:26,554 --> 00:37:27,728 Happy Birthday to me. 549 00:37:33,320 --> 00:37:34,907 I'm heading home. 550 00:37:35,770 --> 00:37:36,668 Bess will look after you. 551 00:37:36,702 --> 00:37:39,049 I'll be back in the morning. 552 00:37:43,675 --> 00:37:44,572 Love you. 553 00:38:20,677 --> 00:38:25,130 Floating higher and higher. 554 00:38:26,269 --> 00:38:31,274 Float up and away. 555 00:38:44,977 --> 00:38:48,809 Floating higher and higher and higher, higher. 556 00:38:50,673 --> 00:38:52,778 Floating, floating, floating, floating, 557 00:38:52,813 --> 00:38:56,092 floating, floating, floating, floating. 558 00:39:01,477 --> 00:39:04,134 Everything around me is like a tunnel. 559 00:39:04,169 --> 00:39:05,791 Unreal. 560 00:39:05,826 --> 00:39:08,932 As if your train is floating, floating, floating, 561 00:39:08,967 --> 00:39:11,383 floating, floating, floating. 562 00:39:12,833 --> 00:39:13,661 I feel. 563 00:39:18,597 --> 00:39:20,427 As if you're dreaming. 564 00:39:45,072 --> 00:39:48,178 Everything around is suddenly unreal. 565 00:39:49,697 --> 00:39:51,837 As if in a dream. 566 00:39:51,872 --> 00:39:53,252 As if in a dream. 567 00:39:55,945 --> 00:39:57,395 Sure, two people 568 00:39:57,429 --> 00:39:58,741 sharing the same bizarre dream 569 00:39:58,775 --> 00:40:02,538 is impossible, impossible, 570 00:40:02,572 --> 00:40:05,472 not able to occur, exist, or be done, 571 00:40:06,852 --> 00:40:08,509 beyond the bounds of possibility, 572 00:40:09,407 --> 00:40:10,235 out of the question. 573 00:40:11,616 --> 00:40:14,446 And yet the impossible has sure as shit happened. 574 00:40:18,899 --> 00:40:21,419 Funny that now I've gotten what I've always wanted, 575 00:40:22,868 --> 00:40:23,800 I want more. 576 00:40:34,432 --> 00:40:37,055 Well, well, I'm surprised to see you up and about. 577 00:40:37,089 --> 00:40:37,987 Are you pouting? 578 00:40:43,682 --> 00:40:44,683 You big baby. 579 00:40:48,307 --> 00:40:49,239 I'm a grown woman. 580 00:40:49,274 --> 00:40:50,620 I do not owe you an explanation 581 00:40:50,655 --> 00:40:51,932 of where I was last night. 582 00:40:55,280 --> 00:40:57,040 Will an apology make you feel better? 583 00:40:59,664 --> 00:41:02,770 Fine, I'm sorry. 584 00:41:02,805 --> 00:41:04,116 You damn well should be. 585 00:41:15,058 --> 00:41:15,887 What is it? 586 00:41:26,760 --> 00:41:28,900 What could the two of you possibly have in common? 587 00:41:29,832 --> 00:41:31,143 Why is she able to see me? 588 00:41:32,317 --> 00:41:34,319 Am I experiencing jealousy. 589 00:41:34,353 --> 00:41:35,907 I should make a note of it. 590 00:41:37,184 --> 00:41:38,875 Do you think you can ever cure her? 591 00:41:40,325 --> 00:41:42,948 As stated, my immediate goal is diagnosis. 592 00:41:44,571 --> 00:41:45,364 What about me? 593 00:41:47,435 --> 00:41:48,264 What about you? 594 00:41:50,231 --> 00:41:52,337 Do you think you can ever cure me? 595 00:41:52,371 --> 00:41:53,165 I'm sure of it. 596 00:41:55,236 --> 00:41:56,030 How? 597 00:41:57,584 --> 00:41:58,826 Think about it. 598 00:41:58,861 --> 00:42:00,897 From the day you met me to this very moment, 599 00:42:00,932 --> 00:42:03,175 you are closer to death than ever before. 600 00:42:11,529 --> 00:42:12,599 Paging Dr. Stateman, 601 00:42:12,633 --> 00:42:14,324 Dr. Stateman please. 602 00:42:22,919 --> 00:42:23,713 Oh fuck! 603 00:42:57,816 --> 00:42:59,507 Paging Dr. Bender, 604 00:42:59,542 --> 00:43:01,233 paging Dr. Bender, please. 605 00:43:01,268 --> 00:43:02,649 Just pretend I'm not here. 606 00:43:06,653 --> 00:43:09,034 Murray's contracted a bacterial infection 607 00:43:09,069 --> 00:43:10,449 in the lining of his heart. 608 00:43:12,313 --> 00:43:13,245 He's in a coma. 609 00:43:13,280 --> 00:43:14,281 What, how? 610 00:43:15,558 --> 00:43:18,457 Any surgical procedure carries the risks 611 00:43:18,492 --> 00:43:21,184 of introducing bacteria to the bloodstream. 612 00:43:21,219 --> 00:43:22,323 Is he gonna be okay? 613 00:43:24,049 --> 00:43:25,050 He's had a stroke. 614 00:43:27,639 --> 00:43:28,502 Is this a joke? 615 00:43:29,917 --> 00:43:31,747 My husband comes in here a little unsteady on his feet 616 00:43:31,781 --> 00:43:33,714 and now he's a stroke victim in a coma? 617 00:43:34,888 --> 00:43:36,855 Look, don't you dare speak to me. 618 00:43:36,890 --> 00:43:38,546 The last thing I need is my fruitcake daughter 619 00:43:38,581 --> 00:43:39,824 making a scene right now. 620 00:43:41,273 --> 00:43:43,137 Just so you know, I'll be watching your every move 621 00:43:43,172 --> 00:43:44,000 from now on. 622 00:43:45,415 --> 00:43:47,314 And if my husband doesn't make a full recovery, 623 00:43:47,348 --> 00:43:49,419 you're gonna wish it was you lying in that bed. 624 00:43:52,008 --> 00:43:53,354 I'm sorry, Bess. 625 00:43:55,391 --> 00:43:58,359 Unfortunately even when we're doing everything we can 626 00:43:58,394 --> 00:44:00,741 there are complications that we can't anticipate 627 00:44:00,776 --> 00:44:02,398 and that are out of our control. 628 00:44:07,058 --> 00:44:09,267 Don't apologize, Dr. Klienart. 629 00:44:09,301 --> 00:44:10,958 I'm sure everything will be okay. 630 00:44:13,029 --> 00:44:16,308 I hear no voice, I feel no touch. 631 00:44:16,343 --> 00:44:18,483 I see no glory bright. 632 00:44:18,517 --> 00:44:20,278 But yet I know that God is near 633 00:44:20,312 --> 00:44:22,038 in darkness as in light. 634 00:44:23,626 --> 00:44:26,111 I heard that as a kid and it always stuck with me. 635 00:44:27,457 --> 00:44:29,805 Who knows about the whole God part. 636 00:44:29,839 --> 00:44:32,152 It just always helped me feel less alone. 637 00:44:32,186 --> 00:44:34,637 The surgery gonna come through, my ass. 638 00:44:34,672 --> 00:44:36,087 Pathetic quack. 639 00:45:17,749 --> 00:45:19,578 What were you doing at the bar? 640 00:45:19,613 --> 00:45:21,097 I left my cell phone last night. 641 00:45:21,132 --> 00:45:24,066 You said you were at the hospital last night. 642 00:45:24,100 --> 00:45:28,484 I was but afterwards I couldn't bring myself 643 00:45:28,518 --> 00:45:29,727 to go home. 644 00:45:29,761 --> 00:45:31,349 I came by here but your lights were out 645 00:45:31,383 --> 00:45:32,971 so I ended up across the street. 646 00:45:34,179 --> 00:45:38,218 I'm at a great disadvantage, Elizabeth. 647 00:45:40,116 --> 00:45:42,463 I cannot discern deception as readily as most. 648 00:45:44,224 --> 00:45:45,777 I need to be able to trust you. 649 00:45:54,821 --> 00:45:57,755 You know you can trust me. 650 00:46:10,112 --> 00:46:11,251 - I'm sorry. - What, what's wrong? 651 00:46:11,285 --> 00:46:12,252 Do I have bad breath? 652 00:46:12,286 --> 00:46:13,736 - You can tell me. - Wait! 653 00:46:14,841 --> 00:46:15,703 Sit down. 654 00:46:18,672 --> 00:46:19,811 Do you wanna get better or not? 655 00:46:19,846 --> 00:46:21,261 You know I do. 656 00:46:29,994 --> 00:46:30,822 Good. 657 00:46:34,861 --> 00:46:35,689 Good. 658 00:46:39,555 --> 00:46:41,591 Um, I thought 659 00:46:41,626 --> 00:46:43,317 I heard her this morning. 660 00:46:43,352 --> 00:46:44,732 Argus was acting funny. 661 00:46:46,631 --> 00:46:47,977 It is time for us to undertake 662 00:46:48,012 --> 00:46:49,910 a new therapy technique. 663 00:46:49,945 --> 00:46:51,601 Are we giving up on rebirthing? 664 00:46:51,636 --> 00:46:53,500 For now, yes. 665 00:46:53,534 --> 00:46:56,192 I want you to start a journal of sorts. 666 00:46:56,227 --> 00:46:57,400 Oh not crayons again. 667 00:46:57,435 --> 00:46:58,746 No, no, no, no, no. 668 00:47:00,852 --> 00:47:02,336 Do you remember that Russell character 669 00:47:02,371 --> 00:47:04,338 I tried to introduce to you? 670 00:47:04,373 --> 00:47:05,823 Mmm hmm. 671 00:47:05,857 --> 00:47:09,827 I want you to pretend that he exists. 672 00:47:11,138 --> 00:47:14,176 And for you to speak to him out loud. 673 00:47:14,210 --> 00:47:17,213 Familiarize yourself with the verbal expression 674 00:47:17,248 --> 00:47:19,595 of your deeply hidden feelings. 675 00:47:19,629 --> 00:47:21,977 But there's nothing I hide from you. 676 00:47:22,011 --> 00:47:23,599 Oh, I do not doubt it. 677 00:47:23,633 --> 00:47:24,634 You don't? 678 00:47:27,120 --> 00:47:28,362 Should I? 679 00:47:28,397 --> 00:47:29,881 What if someone sees me talking to myself? 680 00:47:29,916 --> 00:47:31,227 They'll think I'm crazy. 681 00:47:31,262 --> 00:47:32,297 Well, are you? 682 00:47:32,332 --> 00:47:33,471 Am I? 683 00:47:33,505 --> 00:47:35,714 This is the weirdest thing ever. 684 00:47:35,749 --> 00:47:36,577 Please. 685 00:47:42,411 --> 00:47:45,034 You know I'll try anything if you think it'll help. 686 00:47:52,939 --> 00:47:55,044 Pretend he exists. 687 00:47:55,079 --> 00:47:56,666 Okay, what did Farmer say call him? 688 00:47:56,701 --> 00:47:58,565 Rusty, Russ, I got it. 689 00:47:58,599 --> 00:48:02,120 Ah, Russell, Russell, Russell, Russell, okay. 690 00:48:02,155 --> 00:48:05,020 Well, let's get started, Russell. 691 00:48:09,231 --> 00:48:10,957 I can't believe people go looking for a better life 692 00:48:10,991 --> 00:48:12,061 and end up here. 693 00:48:15,547 --> 00:48:16,790 I've never been anywhere. 694 00:48:18,033 --> 00:48:22,244 But I think about going to a grass hut 695 00:48:22,278 --> 00:48:23,866 on a beach somewhere, 696 00:48:25,212 --> 00:48:27,387 somewhere where I couldn't be disappointed. 697 00:48:34,739 --> 00:48:36,499 I called the hospital this morning. 698 00:48:37,673 --> 00:48:38,950 I told the nurse I was out of town 699 00:48:38,985 --> 00:48:41,090 before she could ask why I hadn't visited. 700 00:48:45,094 --> 00:48:45,923 I lied. 701 00:48:51,963 --> 00:48:53,551 Do you lie a lot? 702 00:48:55,415 --> 00:48:57,900 And I know I'll act wrong somehow. 703 00:48:57,935 --> 00:49:01,283 Like not sad enough or too sad. 704 00:49:03,526 --> 00:49:05,943 And all those people at the hospital 705 00:49:05,977 --> 00:49:08,462 they'll look at me, Dr. Klienart. 706 00:49:10,154 --> 00:49:13,053 Nobody will know what to do with me. 707 00:49:16,919 --> 00:49:18,576 Do you think I should join Netflix? 708 00:49:31,969 --> 00:49:33,798 ♪ I'll be your mirror 709 00:49:33,832 --> 00:49:35,903 ♪ Reflect what you are 710 00:49:35,938 --> 00:49:37,905 ♪ In case you don't know 711 00:49:37,940 --> 00:49:42,634 ♪ I'll be the wind, the rain, and the sunset ♪ 712 00:49:42,669 --> 00:49:44,636 ♪ The light in your door 713 00:49:44,671 --> 00:49:47,191 ♪ To show you're home 714 00:49:47,225 --> 00:49:51,367 ♪ When you think the night has seen your mind ♪ 715 00:49:51,402 --> 00:49:55,613 ♪ That inside you're twisted and unkind ♪ 716 00:49:55,647 --> 00:50:00,031 ♪ Let me stand to show that you are blind ♪ 717 00:50:00,066 --> 00:50:04,173 ♪ Please put down your hands 718 00:50:04,208 --> 00:50:09,213 ♪ 'Cause I see you 719 00:50:13,148 --> 00:50:17,186 ♪ I find it hard to believe you don't know ♪ 720 00:50:17,221 --> 00:50:19,085 ♪ The beauty you are 721 00:50:19,119 --> 00:50:21,846 ♪ But if you don't 722 00:50:21,880 --> 00:50:23,848 ♪ Let me be your eyes 723 00:50:23,882 --> 00:50:26,023 ♪ The hand to your darkness 724 00:50:26,057 --> 00:50:28,404 ♪ So you won't be afraid 725 00:50:28,439 --> 00:50:32,719 ♪ When you think the night has seen your mind ♪ 726 00:50:32,753 --> 00:50:36,033 ♪ That inside you're twisted and unkind ♪ 727 00:51:16,521 --> 00:51:18,937 Russell, will you fix that? 728 00:51:34,574 --> 00:51:36,093 My dad never really did teach me 729 00:51:36,127 --> 00:51:38,509 much practical stuff. 730 00:51:38,543 --> 00:51:40,269 He musta thought that way 731 00:51:41,477 --> 00:51:42,789 maybe I'd always need him. 732 00:51:46,344 --> 00:51:47,725 I hope you don't think I'm being rude 733 00:51:47,759 --> 00:51:50,279 but I'm not really any good at small talk. 734 00:51:50,314 --> 00:51:53,834 So do you mind if we just watch some TV instead? 735 00:51:56,492 --> 00:51:57,735 Why someone would do this 736 00:51:57,769 --> 00:51:59,771 I have no idea but as you can see, 737 00:51:59,806 --> 00:52:01,463 it has caused absolute mayhem. 738 00:54:33,097 --> 00:54:35,927 I shouldn't talk that way about work 739 00:54:35,962 --> 00:54:40,449 or about anything really if it isn't positive. 740 00:54:40,484 --> 00:54:42,693 No one likes you otherwise. 741 00:54:42,727 --> 00:54:44,073 True. 742 00:54:44,108 --> 00:54:45,592 Do people like you, Russell? 743 00:54:47,353 --> 00:54:48,146 I bet they do. 744 00:54:50,804 --> 00:54:52,772 I had a couple of friends. 745 00:54:54,981 --> 00:54:57,984 But when I came back after working over summer vacation 746 00:54:58,018 --> 00:54:59,296 they all had girlfriends. 747 00:55:00,814 --> 00:55:04,680 You're clever and you're handsome. 748 00:55:06,372 --> 00:55:07,925 And you love your parents. 749 00:55:09,029 --> 00:55:11,135 And you have a firm handshake. 750 00:55:11,169 --> 00:55:13,033 Don't forget the trust fund. 751 00:55:13,068 --> 00:55:14,207 What's not to like? 752 00:55:17,831 --> 00:55:21,456 In the morning, I wanna introduce you to Argus. 753 00:55:22,560 --> 00:55:25,045 Having another handsome young male around 754 00:55:25,080 --> 00:55:26,461 should bring him down a peg. 755 00:55:31,258 --> 00:55:32,156 Hey, Russell? 756 00:55:32,190 --> 00:55:33,019 Yeah. 757 00:55:34,261 --> 00:55:38,058 Since I'm sure you're a very faithful person, 758 00:55:39,681 --> 00:55:41,338 will you say a prayer for my dad? 759 00:56:06,535 --> 00:56:08,330 Oh shit. 760 00:56:08,365 --> 00:56:10,297 What if none of this is real after all? 761 00:56:11,471 --> 00:56:15,268 What if it's just some crazy, made up fantasy 762 00:56:15,302 --> 00:56:17,857 I've warped into something true in my mind? 763 00:56:19,790 --> 00:56:20,722 I mean, come on. 764 00:56:23,656 --> 00:56:24,484 Look at her. 765 00:56:25,899 --> 00:56:27,625 I'm not the guy who gets the girl. 766 00:56:29,834 --> 00:56:31,905 At least not that girl. 767 00:58:22,568 --> 00:58:24,328 I can't reach her. 768 00:58:24,362 --> 00:58:28,435 Mrs. Kraftt, I tried all the numbers you gave me. 769 00:58:30,368 --> 00:58:32,370 The overall physical fitness of the patient, 770 00:58:32,405 --> 00:58:35,132 of every patient is different, every case is different. 771 00:58:37,237 --> 00:58:38,791 Despite our best efforts, 772 00:58:40,378 --> 00:58:43,934 the outcome is not always what we hope for. 773 00:59:48,688 --> 00:59:50,172 It wasn't like that at all. 774 00:59:51,588 --> 00:59:53,624 We were just really close. 775 00:59:53,659 --> 00:59:54,487 What else? 776 00:59:56,075 --> 00:59:57,628 My dad left when I was 13. 777 01:00:00,182 --> 01:00:01,667 I had to go out and find work. 778 01:00:02,806 --> 01:00:05,429 I got to know my way around a piece of wood. 779 01:00:05,463 --> 01:00:08,915 I worked my way up to cabinets and wainscotting and... 780 01:00:11,435 --> 01:00:13,126 And then I had this moment, 781 01:00:14,472 --> 01:00:17,959 in a massive custom kitchen. 782 01:00:19,926 --> 01:00:20,893 It was the dream. 783 01:00:23,136 --> 01:00:24,172 And I didn't want it. 784 01:00:25,345 --> 01:00:29,246 The money, success, family, any of it. 785 01:00:33,560 --> 01:00:34,596 So what was left? 786 01:00:36,460 --> 01:00:37,288 Me. 787 01:00:38,945 --> 01:00:40,429 Me and the whole load of nothing. 788 01:00:40,464 --> 01:00:42,500 I think I'm probably crazy. 789 01:00:46,056 --> 01:00:47,678 It's my biggest fear actually. 790 01:00:49,231 --> 01:00:53,650 Then I started thinking what if my dad's Parkinson's 791 01:00:53,684 --> 01:00:56,687 wasn't the reason he kept talking to my mom. 792 01:00:56,722 --> 01:00:58,931 What if he was mentally ill. 793 01:00:58,965 --> 01:01:00,967 And that stuff runs in families. 794 01:01:03,314 --> 01:01:06,455 I mean, look, I'm sitting here, 795 01:01:06,490 --> 01:01:11,081 talking out loud to some imaginary therapy doll. 796 01:01:11,115 --> 01:01:12,772 Hello, that's Looney Tunes. 797 01:01:15,326 --> 01:01:17,674 I really don't know if I know what's real anymore. 798 01:01:20,159 --> 01:01:22,368 Sometimes I think the only hallmark 799 01:01:22,402 --> 01:01:23,714 of sanity is questioning 800 01:01:23,749 --> 01:01:25,889 whether or not you're crazy. 801 01:01:25,923 --> 01:01:28,201 And if you've ever wondered, even for a moment, 802 01:01:28,236 --> 01:01:29,720 that you might not be 803 01:01:29,755 --> 01:01:33,690 all there, you're just fine. 804 01:01:41,801 --> 01:01:46,047 But in any case, I still know exactly what Bess means. 805 01:01:52,709 --> 01:01:53,502 I would like for you 806 01:01:53,537 --> 01:01:54,331 to come talk to me. 807 01:01:55,573 --> 01:01:57,023 I'm kinda busy here, Farmer. 808 01:02:01,787 --> 01:02:03,202 I want the whole area cleared. 809 01:02:03,236 --> 01:02:04,030 Close 'er off. 810 01:02:04,065 --> 01:02:05,273 Come on, let's go. 811 01:02:09,001 --> 01:02:10,140 So you've been following her. 812 01:02:11,210 --> 01:02:12,107 Maybe. 813 01:02:16,698 --> 01:02:19,632 And what have you learned? 814 01:02:19,666 --> 01:02:23,360 Look, it's Bess's business what she says to who. 815 01:02:26,777 --> 01:02:27,605 Bess? 816 01:02:30,056 --> 01:02:32,300 Everybody calls her Bess. 817 01:02:34,474 --> 01:02:36,028 I'm canceling the experiment. 818 01:02:36,062 --> 01:02:39,686 Leave Eliz, Bess, alone. 819 01:02:40,826 --> 01:02:41,688 Are you finished? 820 01:02:45,969 --> 01:02:47,177 Why would you do that? 821 01:02:57,704 --> 01:03:00,190 Oh, I've got an idea, what do you say 822 01:03:00,224 --> 01:03:03,469 we head back to exam C and practice some of the stuff 823 01:03:03,503 --> 01:03:05,402 you've been learning in school, hmm? 824 01:03:05,436 --> 01:03:07,611 We could use the refractor. 825 01:03:07,645 --> 01:03:09,924 Sort of a little tutorial session. 826 01:03:09,958 --> 01:03:12,823 I don't know, Dr. Day. 827 01:03:12,858 --> 01:03:14,721 I haven't had much experience 828 01:03:14,756 --> 01:03:17,621 and I wouldn't wanna mess something up. 829 01:03:17,655 --> 01:03:19,105 Oh, get back there. 830 01:03:19,140 --> 01:03:21,004 It'll make Bruce's day. 831 01:03:32,429 --> 01:03:33,982 Oh, it's strange sitting here. 832 01:03:35,535 --> 01:03:39,608 It's like riding in the back seat of your own car. 833 01:03:39,643 --> 01:03:41,231 Okay. 834 01:03:41,265 --> 01:03:43,854 I'm gonna give you two options. 835 01:03:43,889 --> 01:03:46,374 Number one or number two. 836 01:03:46,408 --> 01:03:47,685 You just focus 837 01:03:47,720 --> 01:03:49,170 on the eye chart 838 01:03:49,204 --> 01:03:53,243 and tell me which option makes the letters clearer. 839 01:03:54,278 --> 01:03:55,176 Are you ready? 840 01:03:55,210 --> 01:03:57,764 Good, Bess, very professional. 841 01:03:57,799 --> 01:03:58,800 Number one. 842 01:04:01,423 --> 01:04:03,149 Or number two? 843 01:04:05,634 --> 01:04:06,428 Two. 844 01:04:08,258 --> 01:04:09,880 Number one. 845 01:04:12,538 --> 01:04:13,366 Or number two? 846 01:04:15,679 --> 01:04:16,853 Number one. 847 01:04:27,139 --> 01:04:28,071 Number one. 848 01:04:36,631 --> 01:04:37,770 Or number two. 849 01:04:39,047 --> 01:04:39,876 Bess. 850 01:04:41,360 --> 01:04:44,328 What is the center point for image focus in the retina? 851 01:04:48,229 --> 01:04:49,609 It's a very basic question. 852 01:04:52,750 --> 01:04:55,029 You haven't been going to school, have you? 853 01:04:58,480 --> 01:05:00,827 I'll pay you back, I promise. 854 01:05:23,989 --> 01:05:25,197 Hello, Bess. 855 01:05:26,267 --> 01:05:27,924 Mint? 856 01:05:27,958 --> 01:05:29,580 You just called me Bess. 857 01:05:31,203 --> 01:05:33,032 Well, that is your name, is it not? 858 01:05:38,313 --> 01:05:39,659 And how is your father? 859 01:05:41,213 --> 01:05:42,455 Oh, he's doing good. 860 01:05:42,490 --> 01:05:44,595 Much better actually. 861 01:05:44,630 --> 01:05:46,045 I just came from the hospital. 862 01:05:46,080 --> 01:05:47,702 That's strange. 863 01:05:47,736 --> 01:05:49,807 Dr. Klienart called here looking for you 864 01:05:49,842 --> 01:05:53,811 and he told me about your father's condition. 865 01:05:53,846 --> 01:05:54,847 And he is not good. 866 01:05:55,813 --> 01:05:57,781 He's not good at all. 867 01:05:58,885 --> 01:05:59,956 What are you talking about? 868 01:06:00,646 --> 01:06:01,612 Oh! 869 01:06:01,647 --> 01:06:02,855 I've spent the last four years 870 01:06:02,889 --> 01:06:04,098 in this office with you without taking a penny for my time 871 01:06:04,132 --> 01:06:05,375 because I assumed this 872 01:06:05,409 --> 01:06:06,652 to be a mutually-beneficial arrangement. 873 01:06:06,686 --> 01:06:08,930 Was I wrong to assume that, Bess? 874 01:06:08,965 --> 01:06:10,104 Please calm down, Farmer. 875 01:06:10,138 --> 01:06:11,312 How many times have you lied to me? 876 01:06:11,346 --> 01:06:13,279 How many dead ends did you send me down? 877 01:06:13,314 --> 01:06:14,556 Was it all a lie? 878 01:06:14,591 --> 01:06:15,799 Sorry, I didn't realize that you-- 879 01:06:15,833 --> 01:06:17,594 Sorry, sorry, does not help me. 880 01:06:17,628 --> 01:06:20,390 Years and years of falsified research 881 01:06:20,424 --> 01:06:21,529 so get out! 882 01:06:23,669 --> 01:06:24,497 Get out! 883 01:06:31,056 --> 01:06:35,025 You fuck. 884 01:06:38,028 --> 01:06:39,478 I hate that I care what you think about. 885 01:06:39,512 --> 01:06:41,583 Everything, I'm the one that stole your fucking diploma 886 01:06:41,618 --> 01:06:43,033 because I hate that you care about your work 887 01:06:43,068 --> 01:06:44,483 more than you care about me 888 01:06:44,517 --> 01:06:46,968 even though I will never ever fucking love you back. 889 01:06:47,003 --> 01:06:49,005 And I hate lying to Dr. Day. 890 01:06:49,039 --> 01:06:51,214 Really I couldn't give a shit about taking over 891 01:06:51,248 --> 01:06:52,905 the fucking practice. 892 01:06:52,939 --> 01:06:54,251 I couldn't give a shit about people's eyes 893 01:06:54,286 --> 01:06:55,356 or having a fucking career 894 01:06:55,390 --> 01:06:57,047 or anything like that. 895 01:06:57,082 --> 01:06:58,807 Well, I hate when you touch me. 896 01:06:58,842 --> 01:07:00,637 I hate you always tell me how smart you are. 897 01:07:00,671 --> 01:07:02,846 And I hate my mother for being weak 898 01:07:02,880 --> 01:07:03,985 and leaving me behind. 899 01:07:05,090 --> 01:07:06,298 Fuck. 900 01:07:06,332 --> 01:07:08,265 I hate my father for giving up on me, too. 901 01:07:08,300 --> 01:07:09,784 Fucking door! 902 01:07:09,818 --> 01:07:11,682 I fucking had no idea how much I really need him! 903 01:07:12,959 --> 01:07:14,237 Fuck! 904 01:07:16,032 --> 01:07:16,860 Fuck, Dad. 905 01:07:22,797 --> 01:07:24,695 I'm in love with this girl. 906 01:08:59,721 --> 01:09:02,414 That's exactly what I'm talking about, Murray. 907 01:09:02,448 --> 01:09:03,967 Well, you can't run away 908 01:09:04,001 --> 01:09:05,693 from getting older, Carolyn. 909 01:09:05,727 --> 01:09:07,039 I had her when I was 20. 910 01:09:07,073 --> 01:09:09,869 I never got the chance to be young. 911 01:09:09,904 --> 01:09:11,664 Do you see the way she looks at me? 912 01:09:11,699 --> 01:09:15,185 It's like I'm just a mom. 913 01:09:16,842 --> 01:09:18,188 What do I tell Bess? 914 01:09:18,223 --> 01:09:19,638 I'll be gone. 915 01:09:19,672 --> 01:09:20,604 It won't matter. 916 01:09:23,987 --> 01:09:24,815 Mom! 917 01:09:38,346 --> 01:09:39,175 Mom! 918 01:09:56,122 --> 01:09:56,916 Mom! 919 01:10:03,337 --> 01:10:04,200 Mom! 920 01:10:07,237 --> 01:10:08,583 Every night I dream that I'm a bird 921 01:10:08,618 --> 01:10:10,206 that gets to fly away. 922 01:10:12,794 --> 01:10:17,005 I don't have a name and I look just like the rest of them. 923 01:10:19,836 --> 01:10:21,286 I'm just leaving it all behind. 924 01:10:28,845 --> 01:10:29,949 I think the darkness 925 01:10:29,984 --> 01:10:31,399 in you is beautiful. 926 01:11:10,611 --> 01:11:12,060 He's real, isn't he? 927 01:11:13,096 --> 01:11:14,200 You saw him? 928 01:11:14,235 --> 01:11:15,443 I definitely heard him. 929 01:11:16,686 --> 01:11:18,239 This is the most important advancement 930 01:11:18,274 --> 01:11:21,242 in our work together, Bess. 931 01:11:21,277 --> 01:11:24,072 I'm sorry I didn't tell you about my nickname, Farmer, 932 01:11:24,107 --> 01:11:27,317 it's just that I like it when you call me Elizabeth. 933 01:11:27,352 --> 01:11:28,594 It makes me feel like someone I'm not. 934 01:11:28,629 --> 01:11:29,768 What do you mean? 935 01:11:29,802 --> 01:11:31,287 You cannot be someone you are not. 936 01:11:32,426 --> 01:11:33,323 Now you tell me? 937 01:11:34,428 --> 01:11:35,636 I'm confused. 938 01:11:36,809 --> 01:11:38,466 Yeah, me, too. 939 01:11:41,745 --> 01:11:43,471 Am I crazy, Farmer? 940 01:11:43,506 --> 01:11:45,266 Not as far as I can tell. 941 01:11:45,301 --> 01:11:47,337 Though, as a scientist, I cannot rule it out 942 01:11:47,372 --> 01:11:48,683 until I prove it otherwise. 943 01:11:52,549 --> 01:11:53,723 He said something to me I've been waiting 944 01:11:53,757 --> 01:11:54,827 my whole life to hear. 945 01:11:57,554 --> 01:11:58,348 What's all that? 946 01:11:59,970 --> 01:12:00,730 That's Russell. 947 01:12:01,558 --> 01:12:02,387 It is? 948 01:12:03,526 --> 01:12:05,321 He's the guy tearing down the arcade. 949 01:12:05,355 --> 01:12:06,632 No, I don't wanna see him. 950 01:12:06,667 --> 01:12:08,116 Wait, Elizabeth. 951 01:12:08,151 --> 01:12:09,808 Please don't tell him that I know anything, okay? 952 01:12:09,842 --> 01:12:12,914 Not yet, Farmer, promise me, please. 953 01:12:15,020 --> 01:12:15,848 I promise. 954 01:12:17,298 --> 01:12:18,299 Thank you. 955 01:12:23,787 --> 01:12:24,616 Oh hey. 956 01:12:49,986 --> 01:12:51,228 You are upset with me. 957 01:12:54,266 --> 01:12:57,131 I've apologized to Elizabeth for my regrettable outburst 958 01:12:57,165 --> 01:13:00,065 and she has forgiven me and I hope you can do the same. 959 01:13:06,934 --> 01:13:08,832 Do you think she wants to be an optometrist? 960 01:13:11,697 --> 01:13:14,355 That she wants to be your girlfriend? 961 01:13:17,531 --> 01:13:19,533 She even made her mother vanish. 962 01:13:19,567 --> 01:13:21,017 For fuck sake, Farmer. 963 01:13:21,051 --> 01:13:25,366 She'll do whatever anyone wants her to do. 964 01:13:25,401 --> 01:13:26,229 Look at her. 965 01:13:46,249 --> 01:13:48,665 You know what it means, don't you? 966 01:13:48,700 --> 01:13:51,392 The fact that this is nothing more than a fairy tale. 967 01:13:55,603 --> 01:13:59,089 Some Aesop, Mother Goose bullshit. 968 01:14:00,781 --> 01:14:02,127 It means I'm cursed. 969 01:14:03,749 --> 01:14:06,442 It means Bess is never actually going to see me 970 01:14:06,476 --> 01:14:07,443 in real life. 971 01:14:09,272 --> 01:14:10,687 She'll stay just 972 01:14:10,722 --> 01:14:14,450 out of reach forever. 973 01:14:19,040 --> 01:14:23,424 ♪ Ooh ooh ooh ooh 974 01:14:23,459 --> 01:14:25,944 ♪ Ooh ooh ooh 975 01:14:27,842 --> 01:14:30,051 But maybe this is freedom, 976 01:14:30,086 --> 01:14:31,397 to get what you've always wanted 977 01:14:31,432 --> 01:14:32,778 and have it break your fucking heart. 978 01:14:34,055 --> 01:14:36,989 There's no dream to tie you down anymore. 979 01:14:37,024 --> 01:14:38,232 The shackles are off. 980 01:14:39,129 --> 01:14:41,511 Nothing to do but let go. 981 01:14:49,070 --> 01:14:54,075 ♪ When you think to show that you're ♪ 982 01:14:55,352 --> 01:14:59,460 ♪ That inside you're twisted and unkind ♪ 983 01:15:00,357 --> 01:15:04,741 ♪ Show that you are blind 984 01:15:05,639 --> 01:15:09,125 ♪ Please put down your hands 985 01:15:51,201 --> 01:15:54,826 Oh fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. 986 01:15:54,860 --> 01:15:55,689 Fuck. 987 01:16:15,916 --> 01:16:16,813 Oh fuck! 988 01:16:45,842 --> 01:16:47,499 Thank you for calling me. 989 01:16:51,089 --> 01:16:52,228 I can't believe I'm back here again, 990 01:16:52,262 --> 01:16:53,988 the scene of the crime. 991 01:16:55,127 --> 01:16:56,612 The death of your father does not qualify 992 01:16:56,646 --> 01:16:58,234 as a crime, Elizabeth. 993 01:16:58,268 --> 01:16:59,649 Oh, you didn't know? 994 01:16:59,684 --> 01:17:01,271 I killed him. 995 01:17:01,306 --> 01:17:02,583 Yeah, it's true. 996 01:17:02,618 --> 01:17:04,689 The surgery wasn't necessary. 997 01:17:04,723 --> 01:17:08,520 It coulda been put off for months, years, who knows. 998 01:17:08,554 --> 01:17:09,797 My dad is dead. 999 01:17:13,525 --> 01:17:14,353 My dad is dead. 1000 01:17:15,700 --> 01:17:16,977 I can't make it feel real. 1001 01:17:19,635 --> 01:17:20,808 I don't know why that surprises me. 1002 01:17:20,843 --> 01:17:21,913 I don't know how to feel anything. 1003 01:17:21,947 --> 01:17:23,121 That is not true. 1004 01:17:24,225 --> 01:17:25,606 You feel everything. 1005 01:17:26,711 --> 01:17:29,058 It's an integral part of your problem. 1006 01:17:29,092 --> 01:17:30,576 You figured out my problem? 1007 01:17:31,923 --> 01:17:34,995 Well, I'm in the late stages of winnowing hypotheses. 1008 01:17:35,029 --> 01:17:36,652 Do any of them address the fact 1009 01:17:36,686 --> 01:17:39,551 that the one person who made me feel something 1010 01:17:39,585 --> 01:17:41,553 for the first time in years 1011 01:17:41,587 --> 01:17:43,624 is having his wrist bandaged as we speak? 1012 01:17:46,662 --> 01:17:48,422 I do not make you feel anything? 1013 01:17:53,254 --> 01:17:55,843 You want me to lie to you? 1014 01:17:55,878 --> 01:17:56,706 No. 1015 01:18:00,848 --> 01:18:02,505 So when you were kissing me 1016 01:18:02,539 --> 01:18:05,577 you were merely pretending to enjoy it 1017 01:18:07,752 --> 01:18:09,892 'cause you thought that was what I might want. 1018 01:18:15,863 --> 01:18:16,692 I love you. 1019 01:18:16,726 --> 01:18:18,348 No, you don't. 1020 01:18:18,383 --> 01:18:19,418 You love your work. 1021 01:18:19,453 --> 01:18:21,593 And you are my work. 1022 01:18:21,627 --> 01:18:22,456 Ms. Kraftt. 1023 01:18:22,490 --> 01:18:23,664 Yes. 1024 01:18:23,699 --> 01:18:24,458 Your friend is stable and resting. 1025 01:18:24,492 --> 01:18:25,390 He's okay? 1026 01:18:25,424 --> 01:18:26,322 Yes, but he made it very clear 1027 01:18:26,356 --> 01:18:27,254 he doesn't wanna see you. 1028 01:18:27,288 --> 01:18:28,082 I'm sorry. 1029 01:18:30,982 --> 01:18:33,570 Um, it's okay. 1030 01:18:33,605 --> 01:18:34,399 I understand. 1031 01:18:39,818 --> 01:18:40,681 Elizabeth. 1032 01:18:44,823 --> 01:18:46,652 I think we should break up. 1033 01:18:51,071 --> 01:18:52,003 In disease, 1034 01:18:52,037 --> 01:18:54,833 Dr. Peter Honeycowell-Kating. 1035 01:18:54,868 --> 01:18:56,973 Dr. Peter Honeycowell-Kating. 1036 01:19:17,856 --> 01:19:20,721 Remember what you said to me before the accident 1037 01:19:20,756 --> 01:19:21,860 about wanting more? 1038 01:19:23,759 --> 01:19:26,796 Did you know that Bessie has seen the interstate once 1039 01:19:26,831 --> 01:19:27,693 in her life. 1040 01:19:28,833 --> 01:19:30,041 The only reason she doesn't move away 1041 01:19:30,075 --> 01:19:32,250 like every kid she grew up with is me. 1042 01:19:33,423 --> 01:19:34,631 There's nothing for her here. 1043 01:19:34,666 --> 01:19:37,013 She stays to take care of me. 1044 01:19:37,048 --> 01:19:37,945 Well, she doesn't have to. 1045 01:19:37,980 --> 01:19:38,774 I'm here. 1046 01:19:41,121 --> 01:19:44,538 You know that being strong isn't one of my strengths. 1047 01:19:44,572 --> 01:19:47,472 It's the curse of the Kraftt women. 1048 01:19:47,506 --> 01:19:50,475 You have no idea how strong you really are. 1049 01:21:20,530 --> 01:21:22,360 Bess saved my life. 1050 01:21:23,775 --> 01:21:26,916 Blew apart all that tough guy don't need nobody bullshit 1051 01:21:26,951 --> 01:21:28,400 and made me want to live. 1052 01:21:31,024 --> 01:21:32,439 Just like in a fairy tale. 1053 01:21:37,030 --> 01:21:39,756 Maybe there is some magic in the real world after all. 1054 01:22:06,369 --> 01:22:07,474 Yeah, I know. 1055 01:22:08,613 --> 01:22:09,786 Come on, you jerk. 1056 01:22:10,995 --> 01:22:13,514 Mating season's coming and if you don't eat, 1057 01:22:13,549 --> 01:22:16,172 you won't be able to... 1058 01:22:16,207 --> 01:22:17,380 You know what? 1059 01:22:18,726 --> 01:22:20,728 You don't have to eat if you don't want to. 1060 01:22:23,283 --> 01:22:24,284 As a matter of fact, 1061 01:22:25,699 --> 01:22:27,977 seriously, go, 1062 01:22:30,738 --> 01:22:34,708 be free. 1063 01:22:48,929 --> 01:22:49,757 Oh. 1064 01:22:52,691 --> 01:22:53,485 Argus. 1065 01:23:02,805 --> 01:23:05,463 I think the darkness in you is beautiful. 1066 01:24:49,360 --> 01:24:50,188 Bess? 1067 01:26:09,716 --> 01:26:11,304 I think you might be here. 1068 01:26:14,445 --> 01:26:18,656 I can't see you but maybe I can feel you. 1069 01:26:22,970 --> 01:26:24,834 Dad was right about everything. 1070 01:26:27,837 --> 01:26:28,666 Yes. 1071 01:26:36,260 --> 01:26:37,088 Bess. 1072 01:27:11,847 --> 01:27:12,951 Your eyes are green. 1073 01:27:14,470 --> 01:27:15,299 Yeah. 1074 01:27:17,162 --> 01:27:21,546 And my hands are rough and my fingernails are dirty 1075 01:27:21,581 --> 01:27:24,515 and I can't ever seem to get 'em clean. 1076 01:27:25,861 --> 01:27:27,690 I'm pretty hairy, too. 1077 01:27:29,313 --> 01:27:30,555 I shed a lot like a dog. 1078 01:27:32,764 --> 01:27:36,285 And I don't have any friends or a trust fund or-- 1079 01:27:36,320 --> 01:27:38,322 What if I told you I didn't care? 1080 01:27:42,878 --> 01:27:45,260 I would think you're lying like you always do. 1081 01:27:46,985 --> 01:27:48,401 But I've never lied to you. 1082 01:28:18,879 --> 01:28:21,675 Turns out the old saying is wrong. 1083 01:28:21,710 --> 01:28:24,126 Seeing is not believing. 1084 01:28:24,160 --> 01:28:27,163 Please don't disappear again. 1085 01:28:27,198 --> 01:28:29,373 Not with the eyes at least. 1086 01:28:29,407 --> 01:28:32,479 They're just a bunch of rods and cones and jelly. 1087 01:28:33,894 --> 01:28:36,794 If you want to talk about seeing with the heart, 1088 01:28:36,828 --> 01:28:38,140 you know where to find me. 1089 01:28:39,244 --> 01:28:41,316 I'll be right here with this girl forever. 1090 01:28:42,213 --> 01:28:45,181 ♪ I wanna line the walls 1091 01:28:45,216 --> 01:28:50,221 ♪ With photographs you sent 1092 01:28:52,257 --> 01:28:56,503 ♪ Of you lying in your swimsuit ♪ 1093 01:28:56,538 --> 01:29:01,474 ♪ On the bed 1094 01:29:02,406 --> 01:29:06,168 ♪ Can't live without your love 1095 01:29:06,202 --> 01:29:11,207 ♪ Inside me now 1096 01:29:12,105 --> 01:29:14,763 ♪ I'll find a way to slip 1097 01:29:14,797 --> 01:29:19,802 ♪ Into your skin somehow 1098 01:29:21,632 --> 01:29:26,637 ♪ I wanna fuck your love slow 1099 01:29:27,534 --> 01:29:32,194 ♪ Catch my heart, go swim 1100 01:29:32,228 --> 01:29:34,610 ♪ Feel your lips crush 1101 01:29:34,645 --> 01:29:37,233 ♪ I want you 1102 01:29:37,268 --> 01:29:42,273 ♪ Hold you here my loveliest friend ♪ 1103 01:29:47,002 --> 01:29:52,007 ♪ Hold you here my loveliest friend ♪ 1104 01:29:56,632 --> 01:30:01,257 ♪ Catch my heart, go swim 1105 01:30:01,292 --> 01:30:03,605 ♪ Feel your lips cry 1106 01:30:03,639 --> 01:30:06,124 ♪ I want you 1107 01:30:06,159 --> 01:30:10,474 ♪ Hold you here my loveliest friend ♪